Poem 04

I reside in the inner mind
Another unseen motivator
A fate maker
I have made many ask why

For reasons unclear
Voices I hear
My opposite
"You'll do well " he yells
While I simply repeat the same chant
"Are you sure you can do that "

Our boss, our landlord he is left without words
Maybe he'll claim
"But my intentions are pure
I can , I can succeed in this world."

Momentarily I grow silent
Allowing my prediction to come true
Our boss losses a but of clout
Humbled, by me
Doubt .

Thoughts

Empowered by thoughts
thoughts I no longer conceal .
I speak against my will.
"Do you care how anyone feels."

I apologize too late
3 people pissed
One mistake
Was It my fault for admitting
They we're fake

Now I have to go
Get away for a bit
Why
To let people forget

Thoughts are dangerous
Their best hidden
Locked away, until the end of days

Poem 02

this place.
locked in outer space 
how I arrived no longer matters 
I over stood the case 

ashamed to have my face 

one of many bastards 
incaged by unseen masters 
I'd rather stay then risk. 
escape 

I who prefers a pre defined fate

Status Quo

Dream I had of a life
Life not defined as a series of transactions.
Or rolls of dice .

But just as is .
Something I didn't pick or chose .
Life is that.
A gamble , chance , fate
Mistakes ,
out of film when I need just one more take .

Yet I ask
What good would another take be
Same director, same actors same set .
Same plot .
Same 3 possibilities .

Yet I want that second take
As if it's needed to
See the winning numbers then play .
Just to have something to save .

3 outcomes
1. Unknown, unclear, vague, just ok
2. Lost
3 Won

It's all the same .
I designed my own cage .
Imprisoned by my own ways .
Fearing any outcome other then 1.
Freedom means nothing to I who doesn't seek change .